Dal Lake is indeed the pride of Srinagar. During the
winters when the temperature goes below zero, its waters freeze allowing the
children to play on the slippery playfield. The quayside along the road
circuiting the famous lake gets buried under thick snowflakes. The frozen lake
appears like a huge runway cradled in the lap of mountains. The boulevard
facing the frozen water body is wet and muddy under squelching shoes and skidding
vehicle tyres.
The surrounding hills appear like huge snowy tents
floating in the skies to shelter humanity from the tough weather elements. The
weather-beaten chinars defy these
snowy diktats. The higher mountains shine feebly in the background of greyish
haze. Their tops lost in the misty maze of clouds. The slopes appear as if
flour has been sprinkled over them.
Here on the icy playground the dwarf played. Then one
day the ice cracked a few paces from him. He saw a child being drawn into the
water. His small, stunted, robust figure lunged forward showing surprising
agility. Although he got hold of the child’s hand, the congenital challenge to
his physicality prevented him from applying bodily force matching his soul’s
will. The child drowned. Anguish whiplashed his face as a chilly wind hit his
puffy features.
In Kashmir people wear a type of great coat, a long
coat of wool or tweed, called Pheran,
during the winters. But he was so endowed with his particular faculty
concerning height that even during the summers the smallest of shirts kissed
his heels.
The next day, the authorities forbade everybody from
playing on the precarious snowfield. The
shikaras stood like ships stranded on
treacherous sandbanks. Little icicles were lying here and there waiting for the
children to be picked up, kicked, thrown at someone’s woolly cloak or to be hit
with a piece of wood. But death lay in waiting somewhere below some weakness of
frozen molecules, where some playful foot might get into the chancy snare. The
leafless trees bordered the lake in a continuous blackish zigzag like a
peculiar barcode of winter.
****
In a shivering frenzy, the winter had unsheathed its
icy fury that was symbolized by the sword-like icicles hanging down the eaves.
The snow-sabred foliage of chinars
stood like greyish spectres in countless swathes of white. The snowfall had
been so heavy that the accumulation outraced the slip-off from the slanting
roofs. As a result, many roofs looked painted in white. The soil on the palm of
mother earth seemed replaced by the snowflakes. The ice becomes the soil in
winters. Shivering bones, drooping figures and chattering teeth was all that we
could make of the phenomenon of being human. The people tried to carry on with
life hidden under as much wool and animal skin as possible.
Still the religious festivity and fervour pumped up
warmth in the soul. The spiritual warmth, fraternity and soulful hilarity
seemed to defy the cold, frigid dictates of life on the eve of Bakr-Eid falling in the second week of
January. The arrival of the holy day suffused the marketplaces with new energy.
The finely carved, pillared balconies and the ornate arches above the ground
level shops witnessed a fine spectacle below. The uppermost balconies crowned
by the overhanging ice from the roof top patronisingly loomed over the busy
marketplace. The people were excitedly busy in shopping for the festival. The
excited voices of the vendors flaunting heaps and heaps of exquisite bakery and
meat items spiced with the soul of Kashmiriyat
made it up for the lack of sunshine.
Eid is the festival of fraternity. Its charm is
multiplied when the weather gods shower snowflakes as gifts. The Hazratbal
shrine, its precincts clothed in cottony snowflakes, has a special charm during
the Eid prayers.
Passing through or rather letting the people overtake
him, for he had very short strides, he hastened to add his low, gruffly voice
to the undercurrents of the teeming faithful.
There were women in cloaks. They wore the traditional hijab, a black cloak from head to ankles
with its face flap (having eye slits). Some had a black cloth tied as a hood
over the face and the head leaving only the eyes open. However, now the
tradition seemed adapting to the newer times. Brightly coloured—yellow, red,
green, chequered—headscarves could also be seen. Though tied in all protection,
these colours left at least half of the face open. The burqas also had minimal embroidery around neck and cuffs.
A woman in a multi-coloured scarf and a long brown
jacket over her cloak passed him and he was struck by her beauty. But she was
too tall for him. The feeling of his short stature hit him really hard at such
times. After all, he had the full heart of a man. A heart is seldom crippled by
any physical shortcoming in the body. It’s its own master.
From a distance he saw the women praying, their arms
stretched in front, the palms cupped out to beseech love, joy and prosperity in
life. He too bowed his large head, contemplating over the Almighty, and prayed
for peace and normalcy to return to this place. After all, it was once known as
the ‘heaven on earth’.
****
It was a snowy Sunday. The National Highway had been
closed due to snowfall leaving the valley isolated—even the Srinagar-bound
flights had been cancelled—in its white icy cradle. The valley would now
survive on the stocks of essential commodities, kerosene and LPG. The snowfall
continued till afternoon on this Sunday; then it stopped leaving alleys,
side-alleys, main streets and the cross lanes in Srinagar under a thick layer
of snow.
In this quaint alley, boasting three-storeyed
buildings having glass fronted wooden-framed windows overlooking the street, a
rut had just been created by a cumbersomely driven pony cart. There was snow
everywhere, snow on the fencing grills encircling the open fronts of the ground
level shops, snow on the roofs, snow on the leafless chinar branches in front of houses, on a hand-pulled cart lying
almost abandoned in a pile of snow. Only the electricity poles and wires seemed
to escape the icy onslaught. Pigeons in hundreds were flocking out. Many
flying, flapping mid air, others sitting lined on the wires stoically, some
sitting and walking on the whitened ground, and many others cooed from the
projecting ledges over the upper most balconies.
****
Like weeds and pests, the insurgents threatened the
agriculture painstakingly nurtured by the Indian State for almost six decades.
Hence these needed to be eliminated. After all, no hardworking farmer would
like his hard work to go in vain and won’t dither from using poison to do away
with the nuisance. The army was fraught with the tough task of neutralising the
terror capabilities of the militant organisations.
The LeT with its parallel cells (functioning
independently) was a big menace for the security forces. Its stealthy structure
was expertly funnelling funds to the parallel cells through informants
operating so disguisedly that even their family members had no clue to their
deeds. So the snow kept on falling, the army busy in cracking codes; the
messengers and informants busy in whisking away secrets to and fro; the code
names cracking over the radio call with its tick tick ‘Cheetah 786’ and many
more.
It was a gruesome thaw in the snow. The mentors across
the border kept busy in expertly pumping intrigue. Shady characters with
blooded hands zealously engaged in jihad and organised terror attacks as per
their version of service to God. The army going, as a result, overenthusiastic
in countering the threats.
The army top brass was nudging their heads in
puzzlement about this commander having the authority to issue Lashkar
communiqué. The faceless man was known under a different identity to the
over-ground cadre. There were various alias about him. His operational secrecy
was impeccable. Even the long-standing operatives were not too sure about the
real identity of this planning, guiding force.
The public relations chief of the outfit, working
under a covert identity, himself had vague ideas about this inspirational
figure, as he sneaked threats and fatwas
to the newspaper offices and expected the said great man to be hidden somewhere
in the command bunkers in the hills. In the cadre itself, there was a talk that
‘the chilli in the Indian eyes’ had been spotted giving a hell-raising speech
against the Indians. Some said he organized a training camp in Sumblar forests.
There were also talks of his movements in the forests of Bandipora mountains.
****
The dwarf didn’t remember his parents. As his short,
stubby limbs grew in their stunted roundness, he realised his status and put
himself in a world distant and apart from the rapidly, furiously, long-striding
mundane life. To the latter, he was just a show-casing object to be laughed at
and ogled at with mocking muse while with his short, stubby legs he put up an
effort to catch up with the fleeting scene around him. But Srinagar on the eve
of the new millennium was running away still faster. Terrorism was at its peak
and so was counter-terrorism. Attacks, counter-attacks, gun smoke, rattling
shots pulsed in the throbbing veins of this once majestic capital of the heaven
on earth.
Dwarfism is a unique effort by the God to make Himself
understand the ideas and persona in the cramped self inside the tiniest of a
cell. Here soul is ever hitting against the body’s narrow confines. It’s a
tragedy while the society finds something fit for some leery, jesting moments
as in a circus. But then these days, even the circuses were vanishing rapidly.
He was aware of this fact that his mere presence
somehow enlivened people’s spirit, as if they forgot their bigger worries after
looking at someone so different and sidelined. Sometimes they felt pity and
pity being a sublime emotion made them feel better. Usually, the people were
amused directly and as amusement lightens the mind instantly, its effect could
be seen in their easier spirits.
He was doubly unfortunate. One, he was a dwarf;
second, he was homeless and all alone. Whatever care that could have been
spared for him was robbed by the panicked environs of this worst decade in
Kashmir’s history.
In the busy big bazaars having gun-totting security
personnel, in the lanes and bylanes smelling of intrigues, in schools, offices,
houses and shops the life overall chugged ahead with a scratching, itching
ambiguity. Who will come out to be who could never be guessed. So people went
hurriedly, guarding their innermost feelings to themselves.
Then a corner-side tea stall operator took fancy to
this trundling, slogging character and gave him the job of tea-boy. Across the
square, the military picket found it a bit refreshing to get tea from this
circus item but not before he would take a cup himself from the kettle. These
battle hardened soldiers wearing bullet-proof vests, clad in intimidating
fatigues and crowning helmets certainly eased their pent-up tension while
joking with this ‘aflatoon’—as they
called him—while his employer, so gentle in manners and words, looked on with
certain satisfaction from across the square.
One day, suddenly even this new-found niche of some
stability and dull dignity was robbed. The military intelligence had spotted
the amicable tea-shopper as a highly suspected cog in the underground network
of the mysterious Lashkar commander.
Before they could pinpoint him, he brought out a
pistol from almost nowhere and fired, hitting a young soldier in the face
before he himself was riddled with bullets. His body was now lying sprawled in
a most horrid manner. Around him the gun-totting security men stared with
mechanical, emotionless eyes; the urgency of the operation robbing them even of
the few moments left to the colleague with whom they had spent many moments of
their imperilled life in the valley. The last pulse gone and the dam of patience
and control was broken. A friend soldier ran and fired a volley into the
militant’s dead body. Others scampered to take control of him. After all, the
military is all about discipline.
Aflatoon stood paralysed. In one strike, the destiny
had snatched away the two human beings whom he had come to like the most, the
dead soldier and the tea-shop owner. Both of them spoke to him without the
least glint of mock and entertainment in their eyes. They saw him exactly like
any other human being around. The eyes of the tea seller and the young,
ever-smiling soldier carried a comfortable openness for his dwarfed self wherein
he never felt pitiable or an object of jest. He could feel it. It made him feel
so normal. Whenever they looked at him, he felt like a normal human being. He
had lost two friends. Both were two helpless cogs in two different countries
and set-ups.
The very same friendly Sikh soldier, who earlier jested
and bantered with him, now prodded him with his deadly gun.
‘You too owe some answers, for you aren’t as much
above earth as you are under it! You pygmy Muslim, you never gave any hint of
the suspicious nature of your master!’
He was tortured; though in its milder form because the
interrogators themselves took fancy to the jibing game of interrogation with
this unusual suspect. He created ripples of laughter as he winced with pain to
slaps and cigarette butts on his skin or pull of ears and hair and kicks. It
was over all good fun to the soldiers.
As he came out beaten, ashamed and humiliated, the
locals spat at him, suspecting him to have played truant in complicity with the
military.
He had been taught a bitter lesson:
‘I’m a dwarf, but more than the punishment of God, it
is the inflated egos on both sides that squeeze life out of me. My Kashmir also
bears the same fate, being grounded between these two heavy millstones! God was
far less punishing in throwing my life in this little bodily cage than hurling
me in this corridor of uncertainty and making me a suspect in all eyes. I’ve
become an eyesore to all. One can hope to survive by taking sides but I’ve been
robbed even of that!’