A little journey

 On our relentless march on the path of progress, we have turned ‘time’ more and more scarce. We are running against time, or maybe away from it. We have speedier vehicles, better roads, iron-hard will to arrive ‘within time’ but still we are losing the grip and time is always speeding away, forcing us to continue increasing our quest for more speed. Everything is in a whirlwind, spinning like a mad top, cosmic top with whirring galaxies, sucking black holes, exploding stars. Things have changed so much as to reverse the reality: waterwork’s vestiges on the Himalayan peaks and sandiest deserts where once there were luscious most forests. And we with our social prominence and feigned calm trying to outfox time that has outfoxed everything to the stretches of infinity.

As I go slowly clinging to the edge of the road on my scooter, the bigger vehicles go making war-like din and angry clamor. Some even shriek with a hungry terrier’s vengeance. People seem to be running almost madly. Sadly very few have the real clue as to why and where they are running to. It’s more of a habit to run, I suppose. There is not much to look around the road, at least in this part of India. There are sinews of self-destruction scattered around in the intensive lop-sided cropping pattern in the fields with wagon-loads of poison in the form of chemicals, fertilizers, pesticides, fungicides and weedicides. The vestiges of the erratic interlocutors hell bent upon writing a one-dimensional, human-centric legacy.

In any case, you hardly have the time to look at something that may assure you that not all is lost. You have to be spot-on in staring at the road to survive and not get squashed like we squash worms and ants as we hurriedly walk. Your chances of reaching the destination and a centipede crossing the road are almost same. But then there are brief moments that steal in because they fall within the range of your concentration. The gypsy caravan is an exotic chaos by the side of the road. A young gypsy woman untangles the little front leg of a baby goat from the tethering rope and puts some chopped fodder in the small metal basin in front of the tiny guy. A truck carries a pile of junk and sitting on the junk heap are junked humans, the laborers. Faces and clothes smeared with dirt and grease. Destiny-hounded men carrying just trifle measure of flesh around their ribs, while the capaciously potbellied behemoths of luck and prosperity go almost squashing them underfoot. You feel so lucky even on your little scooter amidst car-swarms of latest models competing to get bigger and costlier. Many a shoeless foot bleeding on the stony path, while at least you have your slippers and common ground to walk upon. If you ever feel like a victim and think that the hostile searchlight of fate always picks you out to test you, please remember that there are people who are in the burning kiln right from beginning to end without any respite. 

True knowledge

 True knowledge is just coming home with the realisation that all the information fed in our neural network is only a means for survival, a mere tool like a chair to sit upon. It also sets up the course for unknowing and unlearning, and the consequent swiping the screen clean, to be in sync with the intangible, but ever manifesting, intelligence in its undivided form. Logic, words, knowledge and information are mere chisels and hammers to chip away the mind-created stone from the huge rock of our assumed self, ego, and carve out a dimenaionless entity. So one's logic though can't take you to the Truth, but it can at least help you in avoiding the tricks of the false. So guys pic up your tools, but remember they are nothing more than a stonemason's instruments in his rucksack as he movers to his stoneyard.

Far away from wars and violence

 Mid-June is burning so excitedly and with such clinching ruthlessness that I sometimes fear the hair on my head may catch fire when I go out in the sun. Fierce loo is the triumphantly shrieking queen now. It singes your body and tries to parch your soul. It sizzles with its boiling sighs as if a red-hot iron rod is put in water letting out tempestuous sprouts of water and fire. And heart also burns with pain at the news of burning Manipur. Violence, hate and anger constitute a fire that burns all. It doesn’t compartmentalize its victims across religion, caste, class, ethnicities or any other differential that we humans have created in the society to form groupings. It was tragically verified in the ongoing ethnic violence between Meiteis and Kukis in Manipur. An ambulance was torched by a rampaging mob. A Meitei woman and her little daughter died in the attack. Meitei casualties from this perspective. But a Kuki man lost his daughter and wife as well. The dead Meitei woman was married to a Kuki man. So a Kuki casualty from this perspective. And above all, it’s always common humanity’s casualty. Politicians, leaders and other power aspirants will always trigger fire along the dividing fault lines. It serves their purpose. But in the fire the common fate of all groups burns with equal tragedy.

Beyond ethnic violence and imperialist wars, here in my little garden there is something that defies fire and is holding a little flag of hope, faith, humanity, colors, waters, flowers and spring. It’s a lemon swallow-tail, a butterfly. Gliding over the hot eddies, it arrives in the sun-thrashed garden to cheer-up the brooding, beaten, pale, stunted, withered plants. There are a few sun-burnt flowers, almost lust-ravaged by the fiery kisses, giving a sad smile as if they are the insignia of a proud but lost civilization. It lands among some almost melting, faded purple Mexican Petunia flowers still somehow managing their smiles under the parijat’s shade. The butterfly takes a few sips, and reinvigorated goes gliding almost through the fire. The air is so hot that it seems it will catch fire any moment. A little phenomenon, a transient slogger making the most of the few days bestowed by mother nature. Why stop flying as long as you have the wings even if it means flying through the fire? The butterfly flutters away in the hot, sighing wind, challenging its own colorful, soft pusillanimity, cutting across the snarling loops and deadly snarls of mortality. It’s a songfully fulfilling sight, a wholesale sortie of freedom, a quintessential assertion of free will. A grandiose gale proclaiming, ‘Burn my wings but fly I will at any cost!’ 

Sobriety--an exception

 Their fate went into petulant plunge, landing them into the pits of misery. The same old story of two generations of chronic drunkards. Peace goes out in an illustrious exodus from a house whose males spend most of the time in drunken oblivion.

The liquor-lover who quarrels and drinks non-stop is on a ceasefire today. The house was crumbling, the bricks losing their grip in the walls. It never was a home in any case. But even the namesake house, an assemblage of bricks and a roof overhead, was wearing away due to the negligence and constant strife and tension inside. The walls and the roof seemed to say enough is enough and started giving in.

A little piece of farmland was still in the family’s ownership. It was acquired by the government to build a road. The compensation money miraculously survived because the four daughters and their mother sat on it night and day. The entire female force rallied and banded together to ensure that the money was used in house-making only. The old crumbling house was dismantled. A new modest house emerged out of the ruins as the females of the family beat even the masons, bricklayers and laborers in contributing to the construction work. They worked full time with the construction staff to save the labor costs.

The liquor-lover seems sober today. The proud girls are watching with the immaculate dignity of caring daughters despite all the ill treatments by the menfolk under a patriarchal system. He is sprinkling water over the recently plastered walls. Holding the water hose he lets loose squirts of water like a child. He playfully wets his old father as well. It’s a big change because usually they squirt, sprinkle, pour and hurl the choicest abuses, cuss words and expletives at each other. The father also clumsily gambols a mild abuse. He teases his wife also and sprays water in her direction. How happy looks a house without drunken fights! Well, let’s hope the newly built house now becomes a happy home! However, there is not much chance of it being so given the liquor-loving father-son duo’s unswerving allegiance to the weird code of drunken conduct. But what’s wrong in hoping it to be a happy home at long last.

Urbanization

 The ones who stay in a village may have a notion about relatively cleaner air than the cities. But things are changing very fast even in the villages. In the villages also the disposable plastic per household is on the increase. The farmers keep dung heaps, not too far from their houses, which they use as farm manure at the beginning of a new crop season. In order to avoid the plastic from going into the fields they keep burning the little heaps over the weeks—a very simplistic solution to turn the plastic rubbish invisible in the air instead of seeing it in physical form in the fields. So I can smell poisonous plastic burning multiple times a day. Little do they realize that the very same plastic now goes into their lungs in another form. The day is not far when the hypothetical solace of breathing better air in a village will lose its relevance. The villages will turn as polluted as the cities unless we find a better way to dispose our plastic. It could be as simple as collecting your plastic garbage in a sack and dump it at the dumpsite outside the village near the town. But who will take that much trouble. We need quick solutions for everything these days.