You run after a
thing, struggle and toil for it to the chronic pain of your bones, and much
deservedly you land up at the destination. You have achieved your thing. It’s
the time to cherish its worth, its value for you. It’s time to celebrate and
pause and allow the feeling to sink in. What value the victory carries if you cannot
even spare the time and pause to allow the feeling seep into the perspiring
pores of your skin, taking cool calmness reach to the limits of your soul. But it
almost never happens. The pause, the rest is ever elusive. You achieve your
target and the thing turns out to be valueless. The things, goals and
destinations that you get and achieve and reach become almost valueless the moment
you nail it. It’s always a struggle for the future. And it’s never living in
the present. The dream value, which was earlier carried by the things and
destinations where you stand now, shifts again to some another milestone in future.
So again we drop our present and run after the future. The futile chase: the
mirage keeps on shifting on the hot sands of our bloodied battle. And we run,
madly, trampling the things and the moments which are the only possessions we
have in reality and could have enjoyed, and rush for future, for things in
mind, in the form of ever-escaping criteria of values, goals and destinations.
No wonder, we never live our present by enjoying the victories and rewards our
sweat has fetched us. We abandon the real rewards. We trample the true trophies
of the present. You get the thing and it loses its value. No surprise that we
feel so deprived, poor, cheated, underachieved and unhappy at the end of the
journey when we fall. We hate any talk of pause in life. Little do we realize a
restless run results in a fatigued, huffing fall at a time when legs cannot
carry anymore and eyes fail and heart gives in. A run or a walk is well managed
with intervals of pause and rest at the milestones we cross. It reinvigorates
you for the next leg of the journey. Pause is blissful. It gives you the
beautiful gift of accepting your present. A man, an animal, a vehicle, a
civilization all need pause at intervals to maintain the journey, to save a fatigue
and burnout. Unfortunately that is what we are not doing. Individually and
collectively, we are headed down the precipice. The mad onslaught of modern
civilization, with its plunder of natural resources and unchecked technological
growth, needs a pause, for survival, for continuation of the journey. We are
far advanced down the technological lane. Let’s pause now. First allow the
horizontal spread of the utilities and benefits to the poorest of the poor. Let’s
put a pause on population growth rates, exploitation of natural resources, scientific
spurts and industrial productions. The modern civilization has gone too far
with its unchecked growth. Unchecked growth is self-destructive. It’s nothing
but cancer. The planet is carrying a cancer now. It needs to be checked. Let
there be a pause, please.
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About Me
- Sufi
- Hi, this is somebody who has taken the quieter by-lane to be happy. The hustle and bustle of the big, booming main street was too intimidating. Passing through the quieter by-lane I intend to reach a solitary path, laid out just for me, to reach my destiny, to be happy primarily, and enjoy the fruits of being happy. (www.sandeepdahiya.com)
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
Friday, May 12, 2017
Roaming the planet to look for something which is safe in your pocket
Hi, this is
somebody who has taken the quieter by-lane to be happy. The hustle and bustle
of the big, booming main street is intimidating with the added risk that I may
well forget myself after being lost in the crowd. As you walk in the crowd, the
monotony and anonymity takes over. You lose the charm of life in doing the same
things others are doing. You don’t feel the kick in solving the same problems
using the same old, oft-repeated methods. The solutions also are boringly the
same, the results also the same. And happiness ever looks at the farthest end
of the planet or even beyond. The long and winding chains of the preconditions to
be met, before you trudge nearer to the ever-elusive happiness, are spooling on
and on: the dangerous mathematics of infinitely long factors and functions of
happiness. I will be happy if I top, then you top, ok let me grab the best job,
you get it, ok let me be the best CEO, you become one, then more. Then your
children have to be the same or even more to take you to the still elusive
dream of happiness. More money, more power, more prestige. Then there are
others in the fray who can turn you unhappy even after you have overturned the records
set out for yourself. There is no stopping. And hence no happiness. The problem
is if your happiness is not within you from the beginning and
lies at some goal-post in future at a distance, there are millions, trillions,
zillions and even more open-ended factors that affect, mathematically scuttle
your chances of a win. Forget it. It’s futile chase. The more we run after
conditional happiness, the more we push it away from ourselves. The fundamental
mistake is that we expect happiness to be the fruit on the tree of our efforts,
i.e., the result, the fructification. No, it simply isn’t. It is the root of
the tree of our endeavors, where we begin from, which lasts from the beginning
to the end. If it’s not in the beginning, forget it, it won’t appear later. It
has to be there before you begin. And the state of being happy can be habituated.
Practice it as a daily routine, like you pump iron to tone your six and eight
packs. Nurture the habit of just feeling happy, causeless and reasonless. Just
smile when you are alone. Please try it and you will know what I mean. It lets
loose a cascading effect driven by the hormones triggered by the movement of
the muscles around the corner of your lips. Try it. Close your eyes and just
smile. Unconditionally. You will feel how comforting it can be just to be
happy. The fruits will follow later as you slog it out in the battlefield. It’s
a simple verb, being so, a simple act, a solacing function. We but treat it as
an intimidating noun in the future, interpolate it as success and achievements,
the fruits at the end of the tunnel, the light at the end of the tunnel. It but
is the lamp which is within you when you are in the dark.
The path to happiness can never pass through the stages of unhappiness and
struggle. It’s the present in continuation. Remove all future components from
the equation of your happiness. So passing through the quieter by-lane, not stomped
and nudged by the teeming crowds, I intend to reach a solitary path, laid out
just for me, to reach my destiny, to be happy primarily, and enjoy the fruits
of being
happy. All in all, I just practice the
art of being happy unconditionally.
Thursday, May 11, 2017
Cancered farmer and beggared peacock
There
is an addition to the diminishing bird life in my village. As tractors take
angry mechanized burps, cattle bellow, buffaloes bray, still-remaining house
sparrows tweet, rest of the pigeons coo, irritated crows croak and pigs snort,
the peacocks add their voice to the rustic humdrum. The peacocks scream, is it
a mating call, or distressed plight, I’m not sure. I don’t think our national
bird, occupying a lofty position in the rule book, likes humans as such. It’s a
punishable offence to kill a peacock. But the killing should be direct,
specific, with the proofs of blood and slaying visible at the spot. However,
indirect killing, the slow killing over a period of time, in the form of loss
of habitat and introduction of poisonous inputs in the farms, goes unpunished--as
usually with slow crimes which unfold over a period of time, losing the track
of crime and the perpetrators spreading over a whole group of society and
institutions.
So
they risk their lives to enter the human habitation. It’s a forced migration. A
feathered riot of colours, they are the latest beggars from the species who can
no longer sustain for themselves and look to the man for survival. Irony here,
it is the same man who has grabbed their share from the nature. But then the
robber can very well impersonate as the philanthropist. It massages the
conscience for a mushy-mushy feeling. So the peacocks look forward to get
survival crumbs here. The nature is dying, so how will its offshoot, this
feathered riot of colours survive under the onslaught. They prefer to run on
their paws in a forest. But that is perilous in a village street. Dogs chase
them, cats lay around predatorily and urchins throw stones. So the peacocks
with multi-hued splendour of their trains have to heave their huge
feathering from roof-top to roof-top, looking out for grains and chapatti
thrown by their enemy to salvage some punya
from the basket of sins.
Their trumpeting
peehoo goes vain like rest of the
species’ role in making nature what it was and brought mankind to this level.
The peacock even holds the copyright to the best of colours that we humans
boast about in our designs and aesthetic portraits. But the poor thing doesn’t
have the in it to encash the royalty born of this copyright. Its metallic blue,
bluish-green, iridescent greenish blue, bronze-green, black and copper
markings and glossy green shading is no longer a wonder for the
modern man. It does not create awe anymore. The long train made up of elongated
upper-tail bearing
colourful eyespots is just a pattern on a bird.
Whenever
there is a chance for courtship, the train is raised into a fan and shaken to
impress the females. Love in times of war. There are risks of being caught and
preyed upon. At least the male attracts some iota of appreciation due to its
colours. Poor peahens, on the other hand, with their greenish lower neck and
duller brown plumage hardy get noticed. If there is a crumb to be thrown,
people prefer the peacock and shoo away the unattractive female.
The land under
cultivation, where they forage for grains, snakes, lizards and small rodents,
is under poisonous assault. That land is no longer for them. In fact it is not
even for the farmers—in the medium term. With population blast, decreasing
land-holdings, increasing costs and decreasing returns, the farmers delve
deeper into their pockets to buy more killer pesticides and poisons. They just
cannot afford to lose a crop. A season’s loss and their fate go down the drain.
So the survival comes at huge costs of injecting insecticides, pesticides and
weedicides. The poison not only kills the small world that sustains birds like
peacocks, it enters the ground water and goes into the food chain as well. The
cases of cancer in the village are on the rise. The numbers are far more than the
cities ill-reputed for life-style diseases born of pollution and lack of physical
activity. The farmers die of slow poison, three or four every year due to
cancer. The peacocks roam around the village with their screams. It’s an
ominous shriek. The world is but too busy to survive in the short term, even if
it comes at the cost of slow-death some years down the line.
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Need headache free dose of jounalism--Try WION
What
do we expect at the end of the day? Of course some rest and repose. And some
dose of news and views before hitting the bed. But then pick up the remote,
flip to the news channels. Lo! You get attacked. It’s a Web-war. Web-Heroes are
slaying Web-Villains. Just stay on a channel and the last traces of your sanity
are gone. Anchors shout, panelists fret, fume and pour venom. God, it gives
terrible headache. At the end of it you wonder what did you gain, apart from
the headache, in terms of information that may help you in forming a healthy
opinion. You feel cheated as you come out bruised and the head aching from the
cyber war. For peace-loving souls like me there is an option. In a quiet corner,
there is a channel, away from populist rhetoric and hegemonic posturing, doing
its service of healthy journalism. It’s WION man! The succor of chicken-hearted
souls like me, who cannot afford to witness the Web-War from the reputed
fire-mongering anchors, who are fresh with even freshest channels. The Republic
of my sanity is bombarded. I prefer WION. Sitting with my glass of bed-time
milk, I look for the information that will turn me healthier in my opinions of
the world around. The unhurried trill of its world-class lady anchors providing
nonbelligerent dose of information. It feels like having Chavanpraash with
milk. Very healthy journalism I tell you. Try it.
The parrot and the old sparrow
After a long, hard and wearisome
journey, the parrot realised it was no longer possible for him to fly anymore.
The sundown was imminent and along with the great fire ball his willpower was ready
to surrender and call it a day. His wings tired, his temper losing its balance,
and his beautiful colours mired in the hard journey’s perspiration--although it
was winter--the parrot landed on a branch.
It broke his heart, this inability
to continue on his march to the lowest set milestone for the day. But then it
had been a very tough, cold, stormy day. There was no sunlight during the day.
When at last the sun prevailed over the icy chaos, it was the time to call off
its duty and light the other world.
The winter was at its peak. And
anxious, drooping, panting was his beak. With every precious moment left of the
day, the saffron slanting rays were melting into misty bays. More emboldened,
the cold was creeping up. Its pinch was becoming bold to take everything in its
hold.
With sad eyes the parrot ogled at
the setting sun. His run had been too long and taxing. He had long forgotten
the flight’s fun. Where was that fleeting, winged pun? With each breath and
laboured purr, restlessness crept further into his perturbed fur. Each moment
passed, pinching him with a realisation of loss and failure. With each mile the
journey had become a drag. The vigour and energy, which had lifted him with brag,
were now dumped in a deep pit, from where it was not possible for him to
retrieve even a bit.
Then even the last ounce of strength
was hit. He was fighting to save himself from a fall. After all, he had so many
miles to go. The height of his flight was becoming continuously low. Finally,
he bowed before the eventuality and anchored his feathery weight on a branch’s
restful bait. Halting, but, didn’t bring the relief it should after a long
march because he still had far, far to go.
“Merciless, frost-fanged will be the
night!” he thought to his misery’s delight.
As the warmth vapoured off his body,
shudder crept over with incremental ease. Anxiously he ruffled his feathers as
if to loosen cold night’s siege.
“Where to spend the cold night?” he
pondered from dejection’s highest height.
Everything appeared alien,
uninviting and antagonistic in this freezing twilight. The night moved closer
with a scary chuckle across the gray shades of the twilight. The night so near!
It again put him on his toes. He realised the importance and utility of the
remaining traces of the day.
He looked around like the feeble
truth emanating from a sad couplet. For miles and miles everything appeared
surrendered to the gloomy pal of a freezing, imminent night. All woods looked
solid, unwelcoming and creviceless, without that niche that can become a bird’s
hall. His despair and agony touched another peak.
His sad reverie was broken. He heard
a muffled, breaking-free, old, juvenile chuckle. It was an old sparrow. The
greyish patches in his fur long put under time’s harrow. The oldie was flapping
its feathers in a water puddle. So old and bathing in such freezing winter’s
hold! The young parrot’s senses went into a chilly huddle while staring at the
scene in the puddle.
Even to a tired body, dejected mind
and subdued soul, advice comes very easily.
“Hey such a cold night is waiting! Take
care it doesn’t become death’s baiting! Old fellow you must take care and
should not extend your dare to the extent of catching cold, fall sick and lie
on death bed!” the warning came with ease from his beaten, sulking self.
The old bather, the fun freak,
stopped in the middle of an ecstatic shriek. But within an instant his seasoned
enthusiasm regained its footing. Again the old punster squeaked and chirped to
match the huge heaves of happiness sashaying across his old turf.
“My old coat has enough room for the
water to turn to warm vapours and shun and beat the death’s creepers. Each
moment has to be lived like a full day before I fall asleep forever. Before
that I have to live, and fear nothing, worry about nothing, and get everything
that can be drawn from each and every moment. I have to milk the time’s udder
totally dry bro!” it tweeted, whistled and made a frenzied display of dancing
in the muddled waters.
The old sparrow had raised a storm: a
riot of happiness; a cascade of mirth. In between he paused and pantingly
opened his beak to fill his old lungs for more life, more vigour and more
strength. The young, beaten, subdued and defeated parrot looked on from the
branch. It appeared silly and illogical to him.
“What could have happened to make
this oldie so happy?” he wondered.
With his saggy, drenched feathering,
the sparrow heaved his old bones to fly to him for a hearing. The moment he
landed on the branch, he brought scaring, exciting, adventurous jolt of mirthfulness.
The branch shook with the force of his liveliness. The young parrot tightened
his claws and ruffled his feathers to maintain his perch. He was hardly done
with it when a vigorous pat landed on his left tired wing. The old sparrow’s
right wing landed with a casual, supportive and friendly force. Again the force
of the old bones jolted the tired young bones.
“Tired!” the oldie asked.
“Yaa,” the parrot could manage a
weak squeak.
“Well, most often we get more tired
in the mind than the body,” the oldie puffed up his chest, ruffled his
feathers, and twitched his tail to rearrange his gear.
There was a little shower on the
parrot. He shook with a sense of cold and moved away a bit. The distance
between them was too little for two strangers.
“New to the place, hummn,” the
seasoned native of the land asked the visitor.
The branch was still swaying with
the inertia of the vital last drops of life in the old sparrow’s body. The
newcomer insecurely, apprehensively, worryingly gripped the wood. A cold night
and darkness was all playing in his mind.
“Where are you flying to?” the oldie
asked softly, suppressing his enthusiasm, feeling the parrot’s discomfort.
“I have to go far. Shouldn’t have
stopped at all. But then my wings gave in,” the parrot sighed, traces of defeat
and loss all strewn over his green.
The sparrow gave an assuring,
comforting smile. “During the day, do your best. Night is just and just for the
rest. No flight can last forever. Rest is not stopping. It’s just the beginning
of another league in the journey,” there was mystic calmness in his old, dim
eyes.
The parrot looked at him and sighed.
He wanted to say so much about his trials, tribulations and unmet goals and
scattered ambitions. Too much was striking inside to pour out. He preferred to
keep quiet.
“Why sit here and ponder over the
path which you can’t even see in this impending dark? Dear I have no family and
live in my palatial hole in the trunk of a banyan. Come with me, my place is at
your service!” The sparrow spoke with the grace of an old patron.
There was almost no choice for the
parrot. In the hot pursuit of another mile, he had missed many a nice shelters
on the way during the evening. Little did he realise that one has to stop.
Stopping isn’t a defeat. It’s biding time for the victory. And when his body
and the day’s last rays both gave in, stopping was enforced. He had to stop and
now take the option that presented itself. He thus followed the old sparrow to
his wood-hole. The latter whistled all the way, chirped songs and hummed notes
of strange happiness.
“What makes him so happy?” the
parrot following the sparrow again wondered.
They sneaked into the cosy, warm
confines of the sparrow’s wood-hole. It ran deep and appeared perfect for the best
sleep. There was a nice bed of softest sinews. The sparrow’s raw, bursting
enthusiasm had turned to a palpable silence, contentment and restfulness which
pervaded the wooden abode.
Outside, the weather turned as bad
as possible in a single night. A horribly chilly, stormy night. No light for
miles in sight. A furious rainstorm lashed the tree as if to uproot the earthy
shackles and set it free to fall. But the tree was strong. After all, it was
the choice of such a seasoned player, the master who knew the strength and
fragilities of the woods. The banyan withstood the deathly throng.
“I live here all alone, but in
constant company of my peace, rest and happiness,” the old host spoke with half-closed
eyes, resting his slightly crooked back against the wood.
“What makes him look so happy, no
longer in pursuit of anything?” the guest again wondered.
“Though memories and reminiscences
sometimes sneak in through my door to moan over my beautiful, active, youthful
past. Darted when I fast. Wooed damsel sparrows with mischievous finesse.
Raised families, driven by my instinct’s pull,” there was a loud thunderclap
outside and the narrator stopped.
Lightening struck somewhere. It
shook the earth. A sinister flash of lightening sneaked into the shelter. The
parrot shook with fear. The sparrow laughed and assured him of safety. He had
seen many such storms.
“The storms aren’t there to kill.
They support life, even though it may not appear on the surface. I have seen
it. Most of our fears are phantoms,” he chuckled.
The parrot listened. He again made
himself comfortable.
“Well coming back to my past that
sometimes sneaks in to disturb like this lightening did to you now. Age then
caught with me. Most of the beauties lie at a distance, teasing you to run
after. My eyes but no longer see them. Feeble eyes you know! When I completely
shut them off, my eyes, they even sense the death’s blood-thirsty hound. So I
open them and just be myself. Me with my weak eyes. I just see the small,
dimmed world sprawled in close proximity to me,” the old host paused and pecked
his saggy feathering with his blunted beak.
“So his happiness is a compromise
with his disability and old age,” the guest thought.
“You know what,” the host broke the
parrot’s chain of thoughts regarding the compromise resulting in a forced
happiness. “To justify a well-lived life, when the force of youth is on your
side to propel you towards your goals, the conclusion, the slowdown has to be
also well-managed, well-paced, voluntary, not an accident. Ending is as
important as beginning. With an accidental, aggrieved ending the essence of the
beginning and build-up gets lost,” the sparrow’s slow-paced words again
dispelled the parrot’s just derived theory of enforced happiness born of old
age and weakness.
The parrot’s body was aching and he
would have fallen dead asleep, if not for the question that was puzzling him to
the extent of forgetting the pains of his fatigued self.
“So I live happily as the tail-end
of a great life lived. The force of beginning, starting, acceleration! And the
path of letting it go, losing the pace slowly, gracefully, receptively. The
deceleration. Slowing down with
effortless muse. To stop finally. It can give as much excitement as the force
of starting. And then the final rest. And during the slowing down phase, the
time becomes slow, the world is a small puddle around your feet. You live like
in a dream. A slow-paced one, minutes stretched like hours, days like weeks,
weeks like months, months like years. In slowing down gracefully, effortlessly,
one can live a dozen lives lived in the beginning mode,” the old sparrow
coughed a bit, and then with a smile, telling his guest that all was well, took
a pause.
A sudden grip of sleep would have
drawn the parrot into a deep slumber but then he heard the words again. He
driven and lynched by the starter’s force; the other one leading the rickety
carriage to its stopping shelter. A journey completed by two characters. A life
lived by two characters, separately, but summary being of just one life. A
beginning and an end. The latter part was so comforting that it appeared to
seep into the turbulent phase of his own first leg of the beginner’s state.
“Enjoyed I the choices that fate
sieved for me. Just grabbed my share. Now I pick up and play among those things
and chaff discarded that remain unwanted above as the fine particles, much in
demand trickled below. But it’s great fun I tell you. In youth we just think
that life means rolling in the sieve’s fine brew. Life can be equally enjoyable
among the discarded heap, little malformed grains, sand-grains, specks and
twigs. Now I roll like a child in the rubble of the past, which was once waylaid
by the youth’s blast. It is now the precious wealth of my old age. Mellows down
the rage in this haze. There aren’t any takers for it now. So I enjoy it alone,
without that competitive drone,” the old host, away from the fire, cosily lying
at the margin, where faintest traces of warmth touched his old fur before
moving into the cold darkness.
The majestic slow down, as important
and enjoyable as the headlong thrust of the beginning. The source, the
beginning, and the slowdown, and the end. A cycle.
“And try even to get bold against
this winter’s hold,” the oldie chuckled, patting his faded fur with the end of
his wing.
“Has he achieved all he wanted in
life to make him so happy?” the parrot wondered.
“During youth I flew majestically
high to beat the cold with my blood’s warmth. Now wisdom swarms. I don’t go out
in the storms. I just go along the gentle breeze’s pace. So I find ways to
brightly light my days with these feeble rays. In this cosy wood-hole of mine,
drunk I’m with my age’s vintage wine. I know that I may not go out of this hole
to ride softly on time’s back at some dawn. When death will pick up the pawn.
Leaving this old fur and feathering engraved in this wooden niche. But it
doesn’t make me sick. That time hasn’t yet come. And I have the leisure of
stretching moments till then to the capacity of my old bones. Also, that sleep
doesn’t appear different from the ones I enjoy now,” a gripping calmness
emanated from each word he spoke.
Outside, the storm was tossing with
a self-ravaging fury, consuming itself, jolting everything around, breaking,
snapping wood. The banyan was but sturdier beyond any storm’s destructive lust.
It stood firm as if the calmness from the old sparrow’s restful soul was
seeping into the wood, giving it strength.
The parrot had been in the hot
pursuit of the orchards beyond the forests, deserts and ocean, where fruits of
unheard sweetness lay more abundantly than the grass below, where the sweet
cooing female parrots, of unparalleled colours and beauty, seduced youth to the
pleasure’s farthest end. His happiness lay too far. How can he be happy till he
got all that he desired?
“The pitcher of desires no longer
exists. I dropped it long time back, realising its weight. If you have it, the
desire to have it full can be a real pain, I tell you. Even if you kill
yourself to fill it, and suppose you succeed, still there is no escape from the
torment. Then the fear of losing it strikes. So where is the rest? I have been
having beakfuls of fun. No storage, nothing. But I’m happy. It won’t be
possible hadn’t I been happier earlier. To die happy, to happily slow down, one
should have been happier earlier during the blasting stage,” the old sparrow
tweeted and whistled as if recalling the happier times.
“This old fart must have hit gold
during his youth, and now he is just rolling in happiness as a pensioner,
munching the leftovers,” the parrot thought.
“The sinews holding life to my body
have become weak and almost bloodless. These will not feel the pain of
cleavage. It will be just like an autumn leaf being painlessly windblown into
the oblivion. In this tepid existence of mine, between hot and cold, warmth and
coolness pervade over my old bones in some pleasant, vague proportion. Pleasure
and pain seem to have lost their specifications. Neither both exist, nor they
are dead altogether,” the old sparrow looked at the guest.
The parrot appeared restless even in
this cosiest of a safe hideout. How could he be? A bigger storm of unhappiness
was raging inside.
“How come you look so subdued and
sad?” the sparrow asked. “Have the conditions been so bad to rob all the real
charm and leave the colour on the feathers and soul so dull and poor?”
The pain inside broke all check-dams
of restraint and the parrot spoke out.
“Though I’m young but the spirit
seems to have sung the last song of life. Too much has been the pain and
strife. My courage appears to have run dry now, although the colour on my
feathering holds somehow,” the parrot stopped and sighed.
Outside the storm touched a newer
peak. The wind screeched. Rain lashed. Lightening struck. Some tree nearby fell
with a huge snapping, cracking sound. The parrot shivered with fear. The
sparrow calmed him down.
“When just a hatching, father was
gone. Grew I up hearing mother’s moan. The paternal sun thus never shone. However,
the biggest consolation was the mother’s caressing, preening, feeding beak. Ate
I fruits at love’s supreme-most peak. As the sole nestling, I was fattened on
her love’s labour daylong. And then went to sleep hearing her lullaby and song.
Aha! Sweetest dreams came with a throng! My whole existence was tethered to her
maternal pole. The brightest attractive-most star sole!” there were tears in
the parrot’s eyes.
He was lost in his mother’s
memories. The sparrow looked on sympathetically.
“Under her great grooming, colours
on me came bright. Lavishly my green and red flashed as I fluttered and flapped
for my first flights. Unbelievable was the pride and compassion as her souring
soul’s maternal shades touched the brightest heights. In her eyes I saw a new
light. How marvellous was the sight!” the parrot smiled and then stopped as if
some painful recalling stabbed the smile.
“Alas, her incorruptible love of
yore was arrowed by the fatality’s shot. Again cupid’s arrow came hot. I became
a past, ignorable and with rot. She was now in another spring of love. Incipient
love for the future in her womb, I was the past buried in a tomb. I thus became
an orphan although my parents lived. After many cries and anguished, aimless
flights bereaved, life’s burden with my soft feathers I heaved. Young and handsome, I flew with time’s
oblivion and balm. Intoxicating is youth’s charm,” the parrot paused.
There was a smile. The sparrow
nodded knowingly.
“Inevitably I fell in love. Heartfully
I cooed with my beautiful lady. Those love-drenched days when the heart was
ever ready to sing an ecstatic ditty! Such abundance and happiness was in my kitty.
So sweet, silent, mirthful and unencumbering were those acceptances of nuptial
responsibilities. Those watchful, eager, searches for hollows in tree trunks
for our nest. Tirelessly we looked around for the best,” the aroma of sweet
memories raised the pal of gloom from the parrot’s face.
The sparrow beamed as if dabbing his
old beak in the sea of happiness.
“Guided by the love’s brace, we
found our place. In that comfortable, safe hole, nothing else but we had all
the muse and role. Our identities melted into each other’s. How proud was I
when I became a father!” the memory suffused the parrot with fresh gust of
energy.
The parrot stood, flapped it wings
and preened it fur with it luscious red beak. The sparrow too got onto its old
claws and stretched his wings to unstiffen his body.
The parrot’s voice had a strained
note now. “I will not become like my parents, I thought. I will not be ensnared
like they were caught.”
Some traces of that determination
still seemed to raise his spirits for a moment. “So I clung to my possessions
with youthful pride. Alas, the inevitability arrived with chide. In full bloom
of youth and colours, whole of my brood flew away. My lady-bird came to be
infatuated under someone’s cooing sway. It was another fine day when she bade
adieu and flew away,” sorrows ran through the parrot’s fatigued, sleepless
body.
The old sparrow too sighed and
stretched his wings.
“I embodied all forlornness. The
loss was glaring in my face. Monstrously unremedied! So I decided to leave that
place. And my sulking wings did brace to take up the longest possible flight
from the place where such pains and unfaithfulness abound. So flew I as if
pursued by fearsome-most hound. For many days I have been flying, my soul
aching and wings crying. I won’t stop till I reach the place where happiness is
not checkmated by such tragedies,” the parrot looked outside through the
opening.
“Why should we enter into something
and love somebody so completely if it is bound to go into gutters? Isn’t all
such temporary dives into life’s stream all futile and vain? Aren’t we just
mere cogs in the hands of those inevitable, unstoppable machines of fate that
make us cheat on each other, abandon the once loved ones and more?” the parrot
had burning questions coming out of his aggrieved self.
The old sparrow, full of wisdom, the
undisputed king of his life’s small kingdom, looked with solace and
simplification of age. Perched safely where youth’s dilemmas and puzzles no
longer haunt with their pinch and rage.
The sparrow said, “It’s like a
flower ruing and ruminating over other blossoms because its beauty will not
last forever and will go to the glooms. Dear, it’s not we who are the ends,
rather the beautiful phenomena like love, marriage, procreation that decide the
trends. We are just means to these beautiful ends and destinations. So become a
tool uncomplaining, tilling earth without any expectations. It isn’t that love
exists because we do love someone.
Love is the primordial sea without any limits of space, time and individualities.
It’s we who sweeten a few moments of life with it till the full stops arrive
with a stopping hit. Do we procreate to cling to procreation throughout life?
No, we are made to procreate to become unselfish means for the propagation, for
handing over our batons, to perpetuate these beautiful phenomena of love and
relationships. We do not leave behind an offspring, but a possible instrument
which may come in handy for the sustenance and survival of those very precious
moments that got us the taste of love, happiness and friendship at their best.
If we recognise it, our spirit gets a solacing rest. If not, we get caught in an
acrimonious net. We cry and put up a bet that I completely loved her and became
the cause of young lives. It was I who caused that buzzing in those hives. But
such limitations would have been meaningful had our survival been unlimited, or
say our immortality was uninhibited. But our journeys are to be ended. So just
cherish those moments that you tended. If you cling to this stream of these
phenomena like these are your inheritance forever, they then become a drag
around your neck, making you a prisoner behind the bars,” the sparrow stopped
and jerked his fur as if trying to find some last trace of such bondage.
“Liberate fella, liberate yourself!
Just be a journeyman who understands that young flowers on a plant, young soots
on a twig do not lessen themselves or the spring in not ruing over their wispy
autumnal fall. They inculcate phenomena. They help perpetuate nature. They
sustain the amazing natural gifts of love, beauty and bloom. They also served
in a similar way, made some new ray, very feeble though, to defeat some gloom
in some shadows,” the oldie’s dull, watery eyes sparked with hope, with
satisfaction, as lightening flashed and reflected in his eyes.
The parrot was at long last feeling
the vibes of happiness and rest that comes with acceptance of simply doing the
duty and completing the task with full heart.
“So the only way to remain happy is just to be
happy, no matter what the circumstances are?” the parrot had his doubts.
The old host chuckled, tweeted and
cleared his throat. The visitor was near the point, although still with his
doubts, which was natural.
“Yaa just be happy, no water what!”
the sparrow lowered his voice as if in cadence with a divine mantra. “It’s basically we who repel happiness away
from us. We don’t allow it to come to us, embrace us, take hold of us. We set
it as a goal too far down the line in future. Some house, some grains, some
accumulation of pleasure, some relationships, etc., etc. We set up goals as the
preconditions for our happiness. And the goals keep on piling up, over the
years, and set up a wall between us and happiness. And happiness keeps on
getting more and more distant from us. I will set up a home and then be happy.
Happiness delayed. And then I work over the years. There is no end. I set a
goal to raise a family and then be happy. Again it sets up a wall between
happiness and us. Like frustrated human log-movers, whom I see in the forest,
we just push on. Happiness stays thus a distant goal. Never to be achieved. We
make it conditional on endless goals, which are never met, because it’s the
destiny of a goal to merge into another bigger one. They never die, only we
die. Huge immortals they are. In pushing for them, we die. Separated from
happiness that could have been the greatest gift of life, had we not pushed it
away from us.”
The long fabric of the stormy night
was slowly melting over the banyan. Outside, stormy chilliness was fleeting
before a promising twilight. Chances were there for a day bright. Clouds parted
from the face of the sky. The parrot’s spirit’s appeared to cut through the
shadows and soar high.
Holding onto the visitor’s traces of
hope, the old host tweeted, “The remedy lies in taking away happiness from the
far end of our endless goals and keep it safe in our house, like I do store
some grains for the harsh winters, near me, in the safest part of my house. It
has to be cut away from the trail of endless goals and ambitions and kept with
the self, in the present. It has to be set free from any conditions of meeting
some goal. It’s a state as good as being healthy. Living for a day. You can be
happy if you set your happiness free from the chains of your lifelong dreams.”
The parrot smiled. It was the dawn
of truth.
The wise oldie continued, “You
should be pushing towards yours goals as a happy
person, rather than somebody who wants to be happy in future after completing the goals. The goals never come to
a halt, only we do, at the moment of our death. So we die unhappily, separated
from the natural state of happiness that could have pumped our life with
unthinkable contentment and satisfaction, only if we had set it free of the
chains of goal-setting and placed it free from those unreachable spots in the
future.”
The parrot stood erect like a
disciple in front of his master.
The sparrow raised his voice as if
carrying his old furred body over to the peak of realisation. “Let happiness be
a precondition for our doings, not a poor outcome of our efforts. Happiness is
a state of being so, not the specific
result of some hot pursuit. There is only one way it can be availed. Either we
embrace it in the condition we are in, or it just eludes. Keep it with you
while you fly. It will boost your determination to fly high and far.”
The sparrow was beaming with such
rest and repose, as can be given by being happy unconditionally.
The peaceful oldie looked out with
hope. “The day today will be warm and sunny. The dawn promises sweetest honey.
Youngman, I’m in hurry to go out of my hole, and play my chirpy role in the
great stage set around. My feeble soufflés and dim light in the eyes are enough
even for the down-hilly afternoons.”
The parrot looked on happily, deeply
drinking the sips of solace and comfort pervading the wood-hole.
“You go high because the forenoons
are there for you with their multiple hues. Go, so that you don’t rue over the
day aimlessly lost. Do justice to the old spirit of your host. Take some
lessons from my soft feebleness. It will boost your courage. Take clues from
the manner in which I make a day out of my night! And top of all, decide to be
happy before you take flight!”
The
old sparrow came to the parrot and patted him with his faded furred wing. The
parrot lowered his head in gratitude for a great lesson taught. Thanking the
host, the visitor flew away into those swathes of promise, where new life, new
love, new aspirations and new relationships held sway. But all that was
secondary, in future and to be worked upon. More importantly, he was happy in
the present. He had decided to keep happiness as a routine, like eating fruits
and flying.
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